Pneumonia

Hello, everyone!

It's been a couple of years.

I have recently been diagnosed with Pneumonia which is AWFUL.

I'd never wish it on anyone.

Today I had a blood test for my immune system. They are going to see if there is anything in my blood that explains why I have a weak immune system.

I am always doing everything I can to improve it. I've had Actimel, probiotic yogurts, Saurkraut, Kefir milk, vitamins...you name it, I've tried it.

The next thing for me to try and do is to lose weight. Would that help? Who knows?

I have a doctors appointment this Friday to discuss my blood results as well as get myself a fitness back to work sheet sorted for amended hours and duties.

My lungs are weak and every day I am trying to improve them. I am told it could last up to a month or more until I'm fully better.

Today is my last day for the antibiotics. Hopefully my body won't need any more. I will see how I do Wednesday til Friday then. 

The only thing I have found difficult as of late is the glands in my throat swell up and get sore, so then I need to drink loads and take Ibuprofen to reduce any swelling and possible fever. 

I also have traumatised muscles from all the time I have been coughing, it has strained the muscles under my ribs, so this has made it a great difficulty for me to drive.

I am hoping I can be able to drive soon, but I'm also told it can take up to a month for a grade 1 strained muscle to properly heal.

So that might mean when I go back to work next week I will have to be signed off any driving duties and get my Nan to pick me up and drop me off. She can't drive in the dark, so I will ask if I'm needed that part of the day if someone can drop me off then I can do the shift. 

Obviously I'm hoping I am a fast healer so I can drive. I don't want to be completely useless, but then I can't force myself as I could end up going back to square one again, which no-one wants.

Today I have edited a daily vlog for a readathon I am participating in.

I am going to head off now to do some more reading.

It was sunny earlier. I was going to sit outside and read. Now the sun has gone in. Guess that means I am sitting in the conservatory! 

Speak soon, folks!

Katie 

xx

Happy Easter!!

Happy Easter, everyone!!

Hey guys.

So I just wanted to do a quick post to wish you all a great Easter.

I'm also going to start using this blog as like a daily diary, letting you guys know what I did in my days, or what I'm planning to do.

It may be boring, but I know some people would like to know what I do outside my Booktube life.

So this can be anything from what happened at work, or what's happening at home.

I hope you all got lots of chocolate!

I only had one egg and a small Gylian box of chocolates which I shared with my boyfriend Sean. To be honest, that's all the chocolate I need! Haha!

Anyways, that's all for today's post.

Thanks for taking the time to read this post.

Kitkatscanread signing out! 

~Katie~

Everything is Going to be OK

These are six words that can be very hard to believe sometimes.

Right now my boyfriend has just discovered his Mum has Cancer, but of the treatable kind.

We are still waiting to hear the results if they are bad or not.

She has gone through several tests already, so at the moment it's just a waiting game.

Sean isn't taking it well if I'm honest.

He actually came home from work today as he wasn't feeling right.

Luckily his work understood.

The only thing I worry about is because we have a rented property, he needs to pay rent, and to do that he needs to work.

He is only working temporarily for this company but through an agency at the moment. So we are still waiting for his application to be approved for this company.

I am always positive when it comes to Sean. I am always telling him that I am here and here for him.

The trouble is, Sean is a glass half empty kind of guy, and I wish he wouldn't be, but he wears his heart on his sleeve and puts his family first all the time.

All I can do is be there for him through this hard time.

My advice for people in this situation is to not think of the worst until the exact results are out there.

It's no use worrying when it could be all over quickly.

I said to him his Mum wouldn't want to see him in that state and to be happy for her. I left him with that thought whilst I went out to have lunch with my Nan today. 

I left him to watch an anime called Attack on Titan which is on Netflix right now. He seems happy.

After that we are going to watch an anime together called Sword Art Online. 

All in all I love his guts, and yes I would love to be the Mother of his kids.

Anyways guys, that's all for now.

Until next time!!

~Katie~

Break Ups

Howdy, folks!
Today I'm here to talk about break ups...

Now I've been through my fair share, and I know what it's like to want to give up. My most recent one was a couple of weeks ago, and I was dumped out of the blue. Even though I did some what see it coming, it still wasn't nice for my gut feeling to be right.

So let's call this recent ex Dylan.

Yes I did really like the guy. I got on well with him, and I loved his parents. He made me happy. I was happy. I did have feelings for him, of course I did. But my problem is that I fall for people way too quickly. (I probably scared him off and he's secretly glad in a way - who knows?)

He was like a best friend to me. And the trouble when a break up happens, you lose the friendship too, and that is what is killing me the most. 

Now I don't want to go into too much detail of the situation because it's his privacy and I'm a nice person. 

Let's just say he was going through a divorce with his ex wife and she wasn't a nice person. He saw the solicitor that said week, and they said something to make Dylan think and churn until he made the decision to dump the hell out of me and block and delete me everywhere, like I didn't exist. Like wtf?

So of course I started thinking of every possible thing. I blamed myself. Said he was going back to his ex, or that he's found someone new and better. He's making excuses 'cos I'm not a nice person. I get depressed or came across too clingy. 

He told me he solicitor had "stirred up some painful emotions and he can't cope with a relationship at the moment". Like wth does that even mean? Does he still love his wife? Is he having second thoughts? Was I that terrible?

But it also makes me think that I wasn't even good enough to fight for, and that just plummets you right into the ground.

And let me just add that he did not see me in person or call me on the phone. He dumped me in a message. As in an instant messenger message, which he knew I despised, (and he agreed it was stupid)yet he still did it.

"I don't want to string you along". Mate, you strung me along for a month. You made me happy for a month then basically said you're not ready. I just don't get it.

"I know you will find someone better". Something that they all say. And yeah, I probably will.

"But I now need time alone". *Delete* *Block* 

So do I...So do I..

I sent his stuff back, because that's how nice I am. I didn't even get a thank you (not that I was expecting one, but it would have been nice).

I also messaged him WAY too many times than I should. Yeah I'm probably  very loco, but I was determined to get my say in! =P

I'm fed up of being let down, stung along, dragged, told they love me, then dump me out of the blue. Makes me think there's something wrong with me. There probably is, but I'm never told. 

I've read everywhere that men like happy women, and that they like their space too, and to be respected. And I did all of those things.

Sometimes I feel like I am better off alone. No one to hurt you.
But then I miss being in a relationship and having someone to care for. I am not getting any younger, and eventually I do want to settle down with someone. Get a home, have kids of my own, etc.

But alas I have yet to find someone who "gets me". I thought I found them, but sadly they let me down too.

Moving on is the worst though, especially when you're left in the dark with no answers. If I was given the real proper reason, then I'd probably understand and move on quicker. 

But for now I can't think of him and have to block him from my existence. So I blocked and deleted him back, and it is helping. If I'm nothing to him, he means nothing to me too.

A friend asked me would I ever take him back? Probably not unless he had a valid reason. I'm a good person and think everyone deserves a second chance. But he won't ever unblock and talk to me ever again anyway, so no point in worrying.

So that's it really for today. It's hard to move on from something so good, but you have to do what you have to do. I am being happy and doing the things that I love. 

There's a great quote that says:

"Don't feel sad over someone who gave up on you, feel sorry for them because they gave up on someone who would have never given up on them". 

He lost somebody awesome that could have been an effing amazing adventure. I just hope one day he kicks himself for making that decision. After all, there is only 1 Super Katie ;)

Don't ever feel down over a break up. I am always here for anyone who needs to talk.

Have an awesome day, folks!

Keep smiling & stay positive!

Katie xx

Sorry I've been absent!

Oh my gosh, guys! I feel so terrible!
My mind just hasn't been in the right place lately.
Even my reading has been weird.

Unfortunately I have caught that blasted Winter cold, so I feel very rough.
I had the day off work today 'cos I felt so ill I just couldn't drive.
I hate being ill as it lets me and everyone else down. I just can't focus and enjoy things as much. I've had this cold for 2 weeks now, sadly =(

Hopefully as soon as this cold goes, I can get back on track.
I have a lot of ideas of topics to talk about, so stay tuned for those!

Staring at this screen writing this has made me very dizzy, so I'm going to go and lie down now.
I hope all of you are OK, and if you are ill: plenty of rest and drink lots of water (tea is good too!).

Thanks for reading!


~Katie~

Agony Aunt

Good afternoon readers!

Today I am going to talk about how I used to be an agony aunt for friends, family, or even for people I didn't know.

I guess it mainly started because I am a good listener. Some people really like to talk about themselves; and that sounds bad, but it is true! Especially women. We sure do love a good chin-wag. 
So because people spoke, I let them say what they wanted to say. I never judged, I only gave my advice when I got asked to give it.

For example, if someone was like "Hey, Katie. I need some guy advice [enter situation] So what do you suggest I do". Because I got asked, I would help by giving what I would think is the best advice, and word it in a way that would be helpful. I try to put myself in their shoes, and pick the most sensible thing to do.

I am one of those people that likes to spread positivity whenever I can, however, I don't like to give hopeful advice and put them in good spirits when there can be a down side. 
I just think if we all were expecting the unexpected, then it wouldn't matter if it were good or bad news, because we didn't prepare for either.   
I know obviously it's nice to be hopeful at the same time, but if we hold those hopes too high, then when it doesn't go our way, we end up getting crushed.